change

Warning: This post is incredibly odd and pointless. It's the late night meanderings of someone to gets overly emotional for weird things. Please feel free to pass this post, and don't feel obligated to comment. It more likely than not will be deleted in the morning. Good thing it's the weekend.

It's funny how we recognize change. We see the same people every day and suddenly they seem different to us. This happens with my kids especially. Mason walks along everything now. If he can walk along stuff, he does. He even dives for something else if it's close enough to just barely reach it. He will walk just holding one hand (albeit not very steadily). When did he grow up? I have no idea. I have progressively older pictures of him and I remember the days, but somehow, it happened in the blink of an eye. Brooklyn is Case Study #2. 2 1/2 years ago when we left UT, she was barely walking. She jabbered all the time and absolutely adored Elmo. Now, she is mothering her babies, making tea, dressing like a princess, and crying b/c so-and-so hurt her feelings. It seems we just left and here we are ready to leave again. Ready to send her off to preschool and, one short year later, to kindergarten. Next time I blink, she'll be getting her drivers' license. Why is this all hitting me now? Who knows. I think it comes on when something significant changes in my life. Mason walking, for instance, is a major milestone. It seems like it shouldn't be too big a thing. I mean, I have been here everyday since his birth. But maybe that's why it is. The more kids I have, the more emotional I get; some of these primetime dramas get me going. What happens when I miss something? I know the answer. Life goes on. Other things happen to notice. No biggie. But still....I hope I don't miss a minute. And in the same breath of that wish, I know I will. But the important things still remain. It's important that we are a family and everything that that encompasses. It's important that they grow up to be good people. And, it's important that I don't lose my sanity thinking about things TOO much! These are the days that I just need to go to bed and let the mind rest. Tomorrow is another day, and who knows what it will bring with it! Who knew someone could love so much? Oh that's right, He did. :)