Tuesday, June 30, 2009

survival

If any of you saw my facebook page this morning, you know it did not start out well. Yesterday while leaving church I backed into someone. Not just a hair's breath, either. A good, hard smack. It was seriously depressing. We were both watching these little kids come out of the building, making sure they stayed on the sidewalk. Who knew there were other cars driving in the area?? Anywho, it kinda clouded my Sunday and started Monday off pretty rocky. After towing the kids to get a quote (a task that took more than a half an hour to find ONE place, when originally I meant to go to TWO...) to replace the entire rear bumper, I was done for the day. I couldn't hack it anymore. We came home for lunch and just stayed here. I ignored my pressing car needs to do mundane, household tasks and to do some freelance writing. Finally I got up the courage to make a claim. Yes, after being married for 8 1/2 years (or so) I made my first claim on our insurance (knock on wood). Having no idea what the heck I was doing, I'm crossing my fingers it all works out like it's supposed to. I seriously HATE money right now.

Fortunately, I'm seriously blessed in the friends and family department. Yesterday, I called (and cried) to my dad. I've vented to my mother-in-law, and cried on Jon. AND, I'm so lucky to have had the opportunity to chat with TWO of my bestest friends today. Both of which made me feel extremely better about the whole situation. (I was hoping I had a pic of these two angels, but I don't have one on this computer. Sorry.) It's amazing how just talking with someone who says, "Boy that really sucks" helps you to feel better. Or having them offer to help in anyway they can. What would I do if I were truly alone? Often I feel lonely. Think I'm stowed away in this house with no one to hang out with. But, that is a farce. I am not alone. I have loving family and friends who would do anything for me at a moments' notice. Just a couple Saturdays ago I caught up with a dear college buddy and it was as if no time had passed. Those are the people I have determined to cherish even more. When I feel down from now on, I'm going to remember that there are countless people who love me. Yes my car is broken. Yes I felt stupid yesterday at church. But, none of that really matters. Nothing but the love of all these people matters to me right now. I hope those people know that I love them too. If you don't. Now you do :).

5 comments:

Colleen said...

8 1/2 years without a claim? Boy, how lucky are you? Don't feel too bad -- it'll all work out. Who knows, you may even find the humor in it in time to write your Christmas letter!

Anna Dutson said...

Sorry about your car, that really stinks. And I'm in your boat as well, I HATE money right now too. There's too much to spend, but not enough money in the bank!

Sarah Hastings said...

That totally stinks, I hate it when stuff like that happens. I always feel like curling up under a pillow until life passes me by, too bad that is never possible. Hope you get everything woked out and today goes better!!

Sarah said...

I'm so sorry things have been so rough, Anne-Marie! I so hear you on the money thing, we have way more things we need than money to pay for them. Things will work out somehow, even if it's realizing some of those things we don't really need, which is not the scenario I'm liking! ;) And our first sunday in our new ward someone backed into us pretty good, and now we're good friends. She was one of the first people we really got to know! ;) That's what insurance is for. Don't worry about it at all. And you really aren't alone at all! I really hope things start looking up for you, I am sure they will!! :) Hang in there!!!

{Erica} said...

Like I said to you "YUCK"!!! Both Bret and I are keeping our fingers crossed for good things to happen SOONER rather than later for you guys! let me know what I can do from here k? Or if I need to come down...you're not that far :)

love ya!